Archive: December 2006
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WAYN’s back. A little bit tired, I think. But also, it was worth being tired. Whole weekend spent at the sea, had fun and relaxed. I really appreciate that this team isn’t just some collective of people working together for 8 hours 5 days in a week. Till I joined it, I though that motivating system known to me as HP System was the best. I was wrong. It’s amazing how much power, self confidence and just sense of having fun you can wake by simply treating employer as equal. Really, honestly I may say it was luck for me to join it. There are only two things that weren’t OK. And I’m not talking about prices in this place where have we been. Somehow it was obvious that four star hotel focused on SPA wouldn’t be cheap. The thing that I would like to change was that I gone there alone. Maybe next time I’d have possibility to take my princess with myself. It’s very pity to miss SUCH party… not forgetting about whole aqua complex. The second thing was that last year gave me additional few… no… not few… a lot of kilos. I hate it and need to change it. A specially that almost nobody have noticed that I’ve lost about 7 kilos in three weeks last time. Also. After seeing photos - argh… I look like a Muppet… It’s fucking pissing me off and at the moment I have much ambition to change it. Maybe also because very few believe that I’ll achieve it. Truth is I’m 22 and want to look like 22 and I’ll be. Just don’t care about others - even - I’d have chance to say: “Now you see!? I done it!” Ahhhhh! It’s like virus. I’m infected by some kind of optimism. Looking at everything through pink glasses. Uncommon for me, isn’t it? OK… as I said at the beginning I’m a bit tired. So… wait for next note and for photos - I need to ask Marcin to fix them a bit in photoshop before (belly and that stuff) :P
… read more…2 min min read - December 3, 2006
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Being honest - again it’s too late to write more than few words. So I’ll just write briefly about what happened last days. Every other additional info, I’ll provide in next note… or next… or next.
… read more…1 min min read - December 18, 2006
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First day of Christmas just passed away. Maybe I’m not Scrooge and that’s not “A Christmas Carol”… even, it isn’t New Years Day already. But even, it’s good time to look behind and judge that I’ve done before. I won’t judge whole year - “Don’t judge day before sunset ” as they say in Poland - I’d just judge that what happened last time. And happened a lot. I not much care about this commercial version of holidays that you can see in TV or in every shop in the city. I’m not really interested in gifts and 12 dishes on my table - as there should be because tradition. I don’t really care care about Christmas Tree and Christmas Songs and Wishes and so on… I just care about that this is most family day in whole year. That’s the This Christmas weren’t like any other before. One one hand family is smaller than before, we are older and we spend it calmer and slower. On the other, family seems to grow, we see new ways before us and us never before we feel that we’re are like one great solid stone - unbreakable rock. That’s very warm and nice feeling. I really biggest reason why I’m happy and lucky men. That’s the reason why I’m not afraid going through next unknown day. I might say another time, that I’m very happy about my position. Someone would say - your boss is reading it, so you write that’s cool. Maybe he does, but even if? Why should I lie? I’m happy that my hard work done across last few years gave me enough experience to join this team and a chance to show that I’m good in that what I really do. That motivates me, shows that me it’s worth to believe in your dreams and just try. Trying is 50% of success as they say… I think that’s wise. I wouldn’t of course forget about my biggest precious that gives me the most of my power, motivation and happiness. Girl that makes me feel a men and want to be better everyday. Girl that is unpredictable and warm at the same time. I like watching that we both learn how to care about ourselves, forgive all mistakes and just try. It’s so great feeling when you feel so sad, so disappointed and one call, few minutes of her voice can make me most happy men all over the world. As I summarise everything I see that there is one luck formula that works for me. Just to be myself, to stay a bit childish, believe in my dreams and just TRY to make them come true. Never give up even if something seems to be unrealistic. Even if everybody around you tells you “give up, don’t waste your time”… Nothing would never, ever stop me, while I have dreams. Dream about perfect family. Dream about girl I love. Dream about me everyday stronger, wiser and more experienced…For these who expected some cool relation… maybe another time… some whiles I’ll leave for myself…
… read more…2 min min read - December 26, 2006
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Have I ever said that I love books? Damn, I hate them. I still remember when everyone wanted to force me reading them. I think that’s just because of that. Perhaps, if I’d find some old copy of Umberto Eco, covered by dust, I’d just fall into world of written mystery… But I haven’t. Or, more precisely, I didn’t, because once I did. But, let’s back to plot. I never had enough strength to pass through Carol May’s or Frank Herbert’s novels. For sake, I was just too young for it. About 13 years old. Something about it. I was just in the best age to learn how to make books your worst enemy. And once. Once upon a time I saw the movie. The Dune. It was so strange, so freaky that I just couldn’t wait for reading the book. And I did it. At last I’ve passed the Dune. Next movie… guess what? Interview with a Vampire. Few year before I was just addicted to music of Type ‘o Negative and Moonspell - their Vampiria. It was obvious that Interview thrown me from my legs. So… damn… this Heineken always makes me lose the point. But I’ll try continue. So. I do love Anne Rice’s novels. Really. Perhaps I love them just after my sweet girl and family. The best thing in them, is that I can find some relation between pure humanity and evil. That I can see me and people around me in every single vampire over there. Too much to say - you should try it by your own. Don’t stop just after the movie. Books by Anne are much different and as I think, much better. Oh. I remember. I’ve found the point. So. You know that I’m graphic amateur. You can see it above ;P. So. For a long time, I’m very, very, very interested in animation. I do much in flash, but I’m still looking for some cool animation software. I’ve found few and I’m testing them at the moment. So. To learn real animation I had to choose some great plot. I decided to use few first chapters of Anne Rice’s Vampire Lestat. I know that probably I’d never finish it. If even, I’d show it only to my friends, because nobody else would be interested in it. But I thought that if I want to do such thing, I have to ask Anne. I did it. And got answer :). Not pointing on it, I’m just very happy that she really have respond my mail. That’s very cool you know. When your beloved author really is able to read what you think and even if she have no time to write long answer - she says - I’ve read it, thanks for mail. Take care… That means for me much. So… Now I’m finishing that note. Finishing my Heineken and going sleep. What would I dream about? About my girl and maybe about me as a vampire… or maybe at least me watching the newest musical of Broadway - Vampire Lestat. I wish I was there… and you?
… read more…2 min min read - December 27, 2006
