Archive: 2019

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  Gratitude

  Every time I come back to this blog I used to have a massive vision of what I would do, how I will drive it further. Maybe: how I'd become another blogging world sensation. Let's be honest. This or most of other blogs never meant to be big. That are just our small pillows to cry our worries, shout our dreams and say our prayers. All the stress, pressure, burnout we can read around starts there. Setting too high expectations for ourselves and forgetting about a very simple thing - gratitude. But it's very important to say "thank you". Even if no one reads. Even if no one listens. It's important to say it to realise that there are so many good souls around us we often not value enough.

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  #gratitude#thankyou#mental health#relation#health#stress#pressure#anxiety

  1 min min read - February 11, 2019

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  Vigilante Cyclist

  

  I never was an athletic type, but I enjoyed cycling. Having a road bike-like hybrid I conquered hilly, difficult roads and simple streets as well. Just before my wedding in 2013, I cycled 200 miles in two days around beautiful Szczecin Lagoon. Later in 2017, I cycled over 300 miles in 3 days and last year I wanted to cycle 500 miles in 5 days, but... my bike was stolen.

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  #cycling#law#higway code#cycle to work#commute#safety#youtube#police#met#metropolitan police#recording#gopro#insurance#stolen

  2 min min read - February 12, 2019

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  Weltschmerz

  Depression is not something I would expect to feel. Not very often. I can clearly recollect moments in my life when it took over. Or maybe something else like grief or anger was there and depression was an easy label for them. But in general, my traces of psychopathic personality shielded me from it.

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  #depression#psychology#psychopathy#sadness#issues#problems#confessions#emotions#overeating

  3 min min read - March 16, 2019

• Software Development & Management

  VanillaJS is a framework!

  In my experience as a developer, I made a few big mistakes. One of them was being late with taking building custom code instead of using ready, community driver frameworks. To be specific I missed the moment when with a seismic shit that autoloading and composer introduced to PHP frameworks like Symfony or Codeigniter allowed faster application scaffolding and testing. I tried to not repeat the mistake later and in the JavaScript world, I made custom code only once as after experience in Nokia Ovi team I failed to find good toolkit (dojo and YUI were there, but... were missing something). Once Angular appeared I used it, then NG2, then React and it stayed this way for a long time.

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  #javascript#programming#react#angular#dojo#yui#development#typescript#es6#goodparts

  2 min min read - April 25, 2019

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  GoPro bad driver hunt

  It is some time already since I decided to be a bit of Vigilante Cyclist. Exactly on 21th December last yer I have made my first GoPro footage based report and a loads have happened since:

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  #gopro#met#police#driving#cycling#cycletowork#reported#everyjourneymatters#london#youtube#footage#phone#highway code

  2 min min read - April 25, 2019

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  Priorities

  I used to be very stressed. That actually is an understatement. I used to live with mortifying fear of failure. But I don't tell that to refer yet again to book by Mark Manson, but to share some finding that came with age, life events and yet again... failures. Well, with some successes too.

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  #health#mental health#priorities#work#family#experience#stress#values#success#failure

  3 min min read - April 28, 2019

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  How to report road incident to MET

  Some years ago when I was cycling with our friends back in Poland we had a very close call with a car. It passed us very fast, very close, forcing a car that rode the opposite direction to run to the side of the road to avoid a crush. In the result of this case being reported my friend who cycled with me that day was summoned to the court because apparently, he overtook me on the inside. In reality, I was dropping to the back of the peloton at that moment. The case was dismissed but we all lost faith in the law.

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  #police#met#metropolitan police#gopro#cycle to work#cycling#commute#incident#highway code#vigilante#report#offense#accident#phone#safer roads#safe roads#bad drivers#mot#insurance#close pass

  2 min min read - May 30, 2019

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  Cornwall to Kent 2019 plan

  

  What and why? ¶

  Another year, another challenge. After cycling 300 miles for University or Liverpool Pancreatic Cancer Research Fund in 2017 and walking over 50 miles for 11-year-old Szymon in 2018 I continue my journey by cycling 600 miles from Cornwall to Kent (and back to London).

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  #cycle#fundraise#justgiving#donate#cycling#trip#planning#kent#sussex#west sussex#east sussex#hampshire#devon#dorset#cornwall#strava#komoot

  8 min min read - June 3, 2019

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  What do I want to prove to anyone?

  That may be the main question. It would be quite valid if we spoke about past events in my life (as mentioned in Priorities blog post). But this time I mean my 600-mile cycling challenge in August.

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  #challenge#trip#cycle#donate#fundraise#mental health#mindfulness#determination#growth#integrity#health#cycling#holiday#appreciation#endurance#bike#fitness#goals#self improvement

  2 min min read - June 10, 2019

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  Call-out culture and anxiety

  In this article I made a very serious semantic error. I mixed terms call out culture and cancel culture. The error resulted also in a wrong conclusion. Cancel culture make targetted entity unable to defend their stand. Call out doesn't make it. Therefore I doubt reporting and naming and shaming (after a trial) offenders (in that case traffic offenders) would cause hypocrisy. It still can cause anxiety resulted from the conflict tho.

  Before I dig into the problem, I need to admit that to some extent I'm a hypocrite. Where I'm totally against and disgusted by call-out (or cancel) culture I may be responsible for participating in it. When I publish a video on YouTube of a driver (cyclists and pedestrians don't have number plates, therefore they stay anonymous) I kind of name and shame them, call them out, even if I'm fully sure they did something wrong, dangerous and worth pointing out. Tho I may have to rethink that, even while writing this entry.

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  #mental-health#call-out#cancel#de-platform#culture#twitter#social-media#youtube

  3 min min read - September 7, 2019