4 min min read - November 7, 2020
What I write here may sound bad for some people, even offend them. I understand and tolerate movement towards "body positivity". Anyhow, I also see the dark side of it. Body positivity often hides or even promotes a lifestyle that leads to disability and premature death. As a person who lost very early a parent to an unhealthy lifestyle, please allow me to oppose that movement. I respect it but consider wrong and harmful.
I won't hide it. With 33% body fat, clinically I'm obese. Still, after seven years logged fight with it. It would be far more, maybe even thirty years, if I counted non-cautious approaches to the issue. Back in 2011, I weighted just above 100 kilograms, and today I'm just below 100. At some point in 2012-2013, I was almost 120 (too ashamed to log it, so it's not on the graph). But I learned the weight or BMI aren't valid measures and understand that today 64 kilograms of lean muscle mass is much better than what I had at the beginning of my journey (wish I had it logged). I see the difference in the photos when I compare my past 100 and the current 100.
I'm still on my journey, and I don't think it will ever end. Mostly because now I understand the sources of my issue. Like alcoholic remains an alcoholic decades after last drink, same I will still be mentally obese when I achieve a lean body.
I learned anyhow what worked, what did not, what triggered things getting worse and why. Also, I understood there is no one rule that is good for everyone. For example, I know people who gained amazing effects cutting carbs away, but I know such an approach doesn't work for me and can even damage my results.
I will continue using the tools I learned to be most productive for me. I have some short term goals, but I know I need to be careful for the rest of my life. I do that not for myself, but for my children. Many would say that it should be the other way around. But I don't agree. I lost a parent when I entered adulthood and know what damage it caused. I want to be for them as long as possible. For that, I need to stay healthy. For that, I keep my fight with my obesity.
And what is your story? Do some of my tools work for you too?
It may sound like I wanted to complain about the lockdown, but it's more a coincidence in words. I don't mind the lockdown now and understand the cost and damage of it. But I even like it. It's more difficult to keep fit, but easier to look after the close ones. I mean, the closest ones. The family unit. With other connections, it's a bit different. Well. I've always been a bit of loner. I had loads of connections and in some environments were quite recognisable. But I never had too many very close people around. It's not their fault. It's mine. Very rarely I find people interesting. I respect them and care about my collective, but when it's dismantled for some reason all fades away. Even though, I don't feel to a bad about it. I respect that people have their lives and loyalties. I'm here for them, but I don't like to push into their lives.… read more…
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